Life as I Know It

I finally did it.  I changed my handle a few days ago.  Sappychick goes as far back as my summit days.  It was my first time at blogging then.  And I was as angst-y as my handle.  When I signed up for Friendster, the name just stuck. There were times though when I thought about changing it.  I remember one conversation I had with my friend Zarah.  She said that I should stop calling myself Sappychick.  It’s so suggestive of endless waterworks.  My life afterall has more than enough drama already.  That maybe if I change into another nick, my luck would change and I would become that person.  I thought, why not?

But never really got around to doing it. Not until recently.

It’s strange.  Just when you think you know everything about life, something new unfolds.  You don’t know exactly but you just get a sense of things changing. And sometimes, before you even get the chance to put your finger into it, it catches up on you.  And life happens once again.

As always, there are two sides of a coin.  A part of you tells you to look life in the eyes and live it to the fullest no matter the cost.  And you say why not?  There is sanity in madness.  At other times, you pause and step back.  And you feel the uncertainty and the fear creeping up your spine.  Cold, cruel, unrelenting.

But what was it that George (yeah, Grey’s Anatomy) said about karma?  You fear karma but you still tempt it.  Why?  Because no matter what, you keep hoping that things will turn out differently despite the odds.  Damn!  Being human is a curious thing.

Life as I Know It.  Right now, it’s doing what I can.  And I’m giving it my best.

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12nov2006
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